The Alchemy of Oil & Water

2007 Thoughts

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“We can either bargain, hold back, and hang onto comfort and security, or we can take a deep breath, and say take me and leap into the fire.”

“Take me, I surrender to feeling everything inside, with discipline and good judgement."*

Allow ourselves free flowing energy.

REMEMBER: Love brings up anything that is hiding.

Drop my images and expectations so I can live from my Essence.

2017 Thoughts...10 years later

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Shit. Just SHIT. WTF? This is probably what I am about to feel. AGAIN. I get feelings when I feel intuition lighting within me. And when there are feelings, there is NO BRAIN POWER. What in the world? The irony that attraction, and deeper senses, and enjoying someone's energy and who they are causes humans to stop using the logical brain parts? What makes them mutually exclusive?

Advice you'll read on this planet:

1. Live in the moment.

2. Be yourself.

3. Love with all your heart.

4. Don't hold back.

5. Follow your heart.

6. Be practical.

7. Look before you leap.

8. Weigh the pros and cons.

9. Have goals.

10. Don't give up.

11. Be smart.

12. Think carefully before you ______.

13. If you want _____ you will have to give up ______.

14. Follow your dreams.

15. Plan ahead, be prepared!

Well, there's the problem!

CONFLICTING REPORTS!

1 and 12.

2 and 12.

5 and 6.

1 and 9.

1 and 14.

2 and 11.

8 and 14.

10 and 13.

3 and 15.

3 and 6.

4 and 7.

5 and 12.

Shit they ALL conflict.

*In the first few lines above from 2007, this was from a book of advice on dating. Literally: Surrender and be free (with judgment and discerning). Did they even know what surrender meant?

I googled it because obviously I don't know since that sentence made zero sense.

Surrender. (verb) to abandon oneself entirely to (a powerful emotion or influence); give in to.

Huh? How can I be discerning if I've abandoned myself entirely? How can you be yourself in the moment, love with all your heart without holding back, follow your heart and dreams, WHILE planning ahead, having goals, being practical smart and weighing pros and cons, then looking before you leap (and when you look this much you never leap), and thinking carefully before you DO anything? Oh, and all the while you are merging this oil and water, DON'T GIVE UP!!!

WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT. AGAIN.

Who invented this stuff? And how in the Universe is it supposed to work on anything? YOU CANNOT MERGE OIL AND WATER. We keep trying? Why are our bodies, minds, hearts, and souls so out of synch and how can we exist when they all four have completely different value systems?

Mind:

Think, decide, weigh, judge, reason, consider, use logical reasoning

Nurturing the mind means: acquire knowledge and use it to choose.

Heart:

Feel, exist freely, be wild, LIVE, LOVE, emote, revel, passion-ize

Nurturing the heart: allow ourselves to be loved, to feel, to love, gratitude, enjoying, acknowledge and accept and sit with all feelings without judgement

Body:

Act, do, touch, feel (physically), exercise, eat healthy,

Soul:

Just Be. Breathe. Feel, Sense, Intuit. Exist in the Oneness. Connection.

Now, combine all those in 472 situations daily...and throw in your ego and spirit guides.

Oh, and have fun!

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What is the oil and water in your life? Will it ever mix? How will you reconcile that? Or will you let it be?

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