Memoirs: Change & Other Shift

Change & Other Shift

Change is like going down an escalator (the down escalator) and having it switch and start going up. It isnt good or bad, it is just so weird! And it can easily make us fall down so we grab for the bannister. When a big change happens in life, as it has for me recently, losing my mom's physical presence, I'm noticing how hard I try to grab the bannisters in life. All the stuff I am "used to" even if it is not to be my future path, I try very hard to hold on to.

I am learning, too, that as the shift hits the fan, all things tend to change. Our relationships grow or fall apart, our career wants to redirect itself, our old vision gets muddled and our new vision starts to take shape. Grieving isn't just for the loss of my mom, it's for how this part of my life is gone. It's so weird to realize I need to change my vision right now-- to want to allow myself to take the up escalator because that's my new direction and there's something so amazing at the top of that flight.

It's hard to get excited about the new right now...and the idea of choosing to grow and shift other things in my life (more than the obvious of learning to handle my mom's passing) is overwhelming to say the least. I've gotten very clear signs from Mom and The Universe about how to proceed, so I'm clear about my direction. But, it's all so different and requires much trust and much belief in myself vas a person.

I have never been more able to live in the moment-as taking each moment as it comes is the only way I can handle everything right now. It's something I Wish I'd been doing all along because it really works well. I think I grabbed the bannister as a reflex, but now it's time I let the escalator take me to my new destination, step off onto the landing, let go of the bannister, look around at the beauty of this different place, and allow a new vision--unfettered by fear--to take flight.

Here's to the shift. Peace & Light.

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